stunning.New painting. Album cover. Portland Cello Project. 12” x 36”, Acrylic on canvas.
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We’ll miss you Grammie. Thanks for all the great stories I’ll get to share with my daughter.
oh the juxtaposition of life and death. i’m sitting in oklahoma in the early morning listening to my sweet Grammie’s oxygen tank hiss and hum while my sweet baby girl kicks and turns inside my belly.
chris and i (and baby) drove 18 hours over the last two days to get to oklahoma so we could spend some time with my sick grandmother. for the last year or so we’ve all been so concerned over my grandpa’s health that it was such a blow to our collective heart when we found out last month that Grammie is the one who is really sick. after a few roller coaster weeks of doctor’s visits and surgeries she’s now at my aunt’s house under hospice care. we’re just waiting it out.
my sisters and cousins and i are all taking the news of her imminent death hard. how can we not? we’ve been so lucky to have two of the best grandparents imaginable. and i don’t just say that because i’m now about to lose one, maybe both - but my whole life i’ve known that my Grammie and Poppa were a treasured gift compared to my friends’ stuffy and formal grandparents.
they’ve been married 61 years as of last monday and they are more in love than any couple i know. i can’t imagine my life, or my daughter’s life, without them - but now that is a reality i must deal with.
it’s hard enough being a ball of pregnancy hormones, but how does one now deal with the difficulty of losing an important loved one while building new life simultaneously? each time i think about Grammie not meeting my baby girl - or my baby girl not meeting Grammie - i just cry and cry. how can i sum up how amazing Grammie has been in stories and lessons for my daughter? i couldn’t do her justice. but i suppose i’ll try…
for now there will be lots of hand holding and story telling at Grammie’s bedside. my little one will hear her voice and know her touch for a fleeting few days. and i’ll find some peace knowing that she’ll have a couple incredible grandmothers of her own to grow up admiring.
birthday brunch with some lady friends. i’m really looking forward to my thirties.
23 weeks and still just a lil’ bun in there. Something tells me she’ll be short like her mom and aunties.
This commission of my Grammie by Rachel Blumberg is almost complete. I want to stare at it forever. I love it so much.
Now you should all buy stuff from Rachel’s Etsy store, because she is amazing.
She’s getting bigger! We’re almost 22 weeks here…any name ideas!?!?
WE’RE HAVING A GIRL!!!
My new lunch obsession.
